Chapter 8: Barging into Stardom
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The next day, I barged straight into an agency.
I went to the headquarters of RCS, one of Koreaâs top four entertainment agencies, without a plan.
Naturally, I got stopped at the security gate, but that wasnât a problem.
If itâs just a machine, thatâs one thing, but with a human guarding it, I can get through easily. Even with a machine, Iâd find another way.
âI have an appointment with the CEO.â
âAlright, Iâll pass it along. Your name?â
âYouâd know me by my face, not my name.â
A conversation like that would normally get you kicked out as a lunatic.
But my face is trustworthiness itself, so the security guard was naturally convinced.
Three minutes later, I was sitting on a guest sofa in the CEOâs office.
âStrange. I donât recall making an appointment with a pretty lady like you.â
CEO Ryu Cheon-seong was a man in his late 40s, dressed in odd fashion instead of a suit, with an aura that felt both heavy and lightâdefinitely not ordinary.
Was it the vibe of a successful person?
It was lucky to meet him right away. A CEO of a major agency like this must be insanely busy, always on the move.
If he wasnât here, Iâd have settled for some other higher-up or manager, so it wouldnât have been a big deal.
But negotiating with the top dog is faster and better.
Meeting some mid-level person and climbing the chain of command would be such a hassle.
âThatâs because the appointment thing was a lie.â
I answered shamelessly.
âWhy the lie? Am I just too charming? Want to marry me?â
CEO Ryu, a lifelong bachelor in his late 40s, was a workaholic whoâd produced several globally famous K-pop idols. His comment felt less like flirting and more like a way to lighten the mood.
Or maybe it was an act to gauge my intentions.
âMake me debut.â
âDo you know how many idol wannabes there are in Korea? Hundreds of thousands. Auditions have at least a thousand-to-one competition rate, sometimes ten thousand-to-one. And you think you can just waltz in with a pretty face? You think being an idol is a joke?â
He looked angry, but it was clearly an act.
I was certain heâd give a positive response.
âThat said, your face is just too perfect. Donât tell me youâre not wearing makeupâthatâd be unfairly absurd.â
Even Ryu Cheon-seong, whoâd worked with countless celebrities and raised numerous girl groups, couldnât hide his awe at my face. It went beyond admiration to reverence.
Itâs only natural.
This isnât a humanâs appearance.
Itâs inhuman.
A Gumiho, a monster that enchants and devours through beauty.
An iconic appearance worthy of worship.
If I said Iâm the most beautiful in the world, most people who saw me would agree.
Except for a few with very peculiar tastes.
âWhy aim for idol instead of actress?â
Because I need to be on stage to absorb vitality.
Whatâs the point of appearing on a movie screen?
I couldnât explain that, so I dodged.
âI love dancing.â
âCan you show me your dance now?â
I stood and moved to an open space in the room.
An a cappella dance could easily get awkward, but I didnât bother with music.
I was confident I could nail it.
My appearance is a cheat code, but Iâm even more confident in my physical control.
Rhythm, timingâI honed those thousands of times in battle.
I performed a dazzling, sexy dance with perfect timing, no music needed.
A one-on-one audition with the CEO.
This dance would show him exactly what kind of idol I want to be.
âWow.â
Ryu Cheon-seong is especially passionate about dance. He was a dancer in his youth, then a dance-pop singer, before becoming a CEO. Even now, he occasionally dances. Though his CEO work overshadows it, he hasnât retired as a performer.
He could release an album tomorrow and perform on stage without it seeming odd.
âYou dance better than me. That stings.â
I didnât respond.
âMechanically, that is.â
What? Criticism? I didnât expect my dance to be critiqued.
I can pick up marinated quail eggs or tofu with chopsticks without crushing or dropping themâthatâs how precise my control is.
No human could beat me in sports.
Billiards, golf, soccerâname it, Iâd win if I competed.
Itâs like a human running among ants. I wouldnât bother, though.
And heâs criticizing my dance? Is he jealous?
âItâs technically perfect, but thereâs no you in it. Those copied moves lack emotion. No, itâs like youâre resisting them. This is a seductive dance, but youâre begging not to be seen as provocative. Thatâs weird. Why?â
âPretty sharp insight. Is he a master of dance?â
âHeâs unmatched in dance, thatâs for sure.â
They say mastery in any field looks impressive at its peak.
Even Blackie, once a demon lord, acknowledged Ryu Cheon-seong.
I was shocked too.
He really read the emotions in my dance?
Heâs rightâI donât like men ogling me lustfully.
With a male mind, how could I?
Iâm only doing this to survive.
If I donât, Iâd have to physically eat people.
âYouâre mistaken.â
No need to reveal my inner thoughts.
Deny it, and whatâs he gonna do?
âYouâre lying.â
âIâm not.â
âI donât work with people who arenât sincere, no matter how talented.â
Ryu Cheon-seong suddenly rejected me firmly.
I get his logic, but isnât that just his personal preference?
âIâll succeed no matter what. This face, this skillâmy singing, which you havenât heard, is just as good as my dancing. And still?â
âI can tell from your tone youâve got world-class potential. But I still donât work with insincere people.â
âWhat about the shareholders? Letting go of talent like me would be a huge loss for the company. Is it right to let your personal beliefs cost the company? If word gets out about this meeting after I succeed, wonât your reputation for judgment take a hit?â
âI donât care. I donât work with insincere people. Ever.â
âYouâll regret that choice.â
You canât force someone who doesnât want to.
I turned to leave the office.
Ryu Cheon-seong didnât stop me.
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RCS is just one of the top four agencies.
Another one would welcome me with open arms.
But why am I so pissed off?
âBecause youâre competitive.â
âShut up. Why do you keep reading my mind and making a fuss?â
Our soul-bound connection is great in split-second combat situations, but having someone peek into my thoughts in everyday life is both good and annoying.
Whatâs good about it?
Having someone who understands me without me saying a word.
âThatâs a bit embarrassing for me too.â
Anyway, as Blackie pointed out, Iâm not mad at Ryu Cheon-seong.
Iâm mad at myself.
Iâm an invasive species.
An unfortunate meteor crashing into the entertainment industry.
If I take the stage, countless people will go wild for me, fall for me.
Those people mightâve been fans of someone else if I didnât debut.
Everything in the world is survival of the fittest, a fight for a limited pie. Popular idols rise by stealing opportunities from others.
The number of people, the amount of attentionâitâs not infinite. Itâs limited capital.
And Iâm trying to monopolize it with a half-hearted attitude.
I say itâs for survival, but Iâm approaching it with a reluctant, âI donât want to do thisâ mindset.
As Ryu Cheon-seong said, hundreds of thousands in Korea alone dream of this, aim for it, desperately want it.
And Iâm acting like itâs nothing, like I donât need it.
âShould I do it with sincerity?â
âThatâs more like you.â
But sincerely seducing men? Thatâs too embarrassing.
With a life spent more as a man, thatâs too high a hurdle!
But getting brushed off by Ryu Cheon-seong and running away with a compromise? I hate that.
I could succeed at another agency, prove his preferences didnât matter, that I succeeded without sincerity.
But fooling myself with a mental victory feels like losing and running away!
I turned back to Ryu Cheon-seong.
âThen Iâll do it with sincerity, alright?â
âIf youâre sincere, Iâd welcome you. Youâre clearly a raw gem.â
âFine, Iâll show you my sincerity.â
And so, I became an RCS trainee.
With a condition to debut within three months.
Ah yes. The typical “No ‘you’ in that dance. It lacks passion! *pretentiousness increases*” Street dancing and idol dancing are two completely different things, my child. Choreographing dances is 101 for idol groups. Not everyone is a “go your own way” type of person… unless, of course… he’s looking for sexual favors. Now that is realistic. Of course, he’ll hide it behind pretense. “You need to work on your interpersonal relationship skills.”… or “There’s no you in this dance.” or “You really need to let yourself go.” other such useless words said by a villain in a romantic comedy…. >.> hold up… Yeah I’ll shut up.
It is actually obvious when someone is only technically good.
Dance, singing, art in general is how humans have expressed themselves, and while there are techniques and tricks that make you better at it, you still need to express yourself.
There is no pretense. He was ready to let her go, even when she asked about shareholders.