Chapter 3: Let’s see me for a moment
It was a traffic accident.
At the intersection in front of the school, she saw the green light and crossed the crosswalk without checking her surroundings.
She was hit by a car that didnât slow down at the amber light and died from excessive bleeding.
On the day of the funeral, the desperate cries of a mother who lost her daughter, the scent of chrysanthemums, and the sight of Chaerin in a neat school uniform in her portrait photoâshe was indelibly etched in my memory.
The fact that a classmate had died was already a huge shock at such a young age, but the reason it was even more unforgettable was.
[If even you leave me, how am I supposed to go on aloneâŚ]
A sense of kinship.
By her motherâs side, her husband had already passed away before her daughter.
Later, Joon heard through the grapevine that Chaerin had lost her father before she even finished elementary school.
âHer acting like a delinquent probably has something to do with that.â
Having experienced the pain of a fatherless life himself, he understood it better than anyone.
He, too, had nearly gone astray because of that pain more than once or twice.
ââŚâ
No matter how much time passed, Joon couldnât take his eyes off her.
Then, a thick hand appeared in front of him, pointing at Chaerin, and suddenly snapped its fingers.
âHey, why are you staring at her like that?â
âHuh?â
Only then did Joon tear his eyes away from her and turn his head.
âI didnât even realize I was staring.â
The delinquent group seemed to have noticed his gaze, as they were whispering and glancing in his direction.
Their chatter was too far to hear, but it was obvious they werenât saying anything good, so he tried to ignore it and looked back at Yuma.
âThis punkâŚâ
Yuma was grinning with an expression so infuriating it made Joon want to punch him.
âWhyâre you smirking? Finally showing symptoms of radiation poisoning?â
Normally, Yuma wouldâve responded with a string of curses, but he kept that annoying grin on his face.
âHeh heh⌠punk.â
âWhat? Say something, you bastard.â
âForget it, man.â
Just from his expression, Joon could tell Yuma was lost in some weird fantasy, so he quickly set the record straight.
âJust to be clear, itâs not what youâre thinking.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âWhatever youâre imagining right now.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
ââŚJust get lost.â
No matter how firmly Joon spoke, Yuma, thrilled at finding something to tease him about, kept up his antics until the break ended, only returning to his seat when the bell rang for class.
As class started, Joonâs gaze fell on the back of Park Chaerinâs head, diagonally across from him, and he sank into thought.
âKnowing sheâs going to die and just sitting here feels wrongâŚâ
They werenât close, but they were in the same class.
More than anything, the image of her mother crying endlessly at the funeral, calling her name, weighed heavily on his heart.
âIf I died, my mom would cry like that too.â
âHaâŚâ
Fine, since Iâm back in the past, I might as well save someone.
With that resolve, he ignored the lesson he wasnât listening to anyway, opened his notebook, and started jotting down details about her death.
âWhen exactly was the accident?â
As far as he could recall, it was still during the winter uniform season.
âIt was not long after the semester startedâŚâ
He vaguely remembered, but the details were fuzzy, and he racked his brain trying to recall.
Then, his eyes caught the birthday list posted at the front of the classroom.
âRight, her birthday.â
When Chaerin died, heâd overheard something at her funeral.
[Her birthday was coming up in less than a weekâŚ]
She had died a week before her birthday.
That narrowed down the timeframe considerably.
âSo, if I can just confirm her birthday, the real problem isâŚâ
How to approach Park Chaerin.
He knew sheâd get hit by a car after school in front of the school, but without the exact date, heâd have to keep an eye on her constantly.
âFollowing her around like a stalker and getting caught would be a disaster.â
Was there a way to openly hang out with her?
âThe only thing we have in common is that we both lost our dads.â
But he couldnât exactly walk up and say, âHey, you donât have a dad? Me neither, wanna be friends?â That wouldnât work.
He mulled over how to approach her, but no good ideas came.
âSee you tomorrow, guys.â
âYeah~â
Even after classes ended and after-school hours began, he still hadnât come up with a decent plan.
Lost in thought, he stayed seated as Chaerinâs friends gathered around her, and they started leaving the classroom.
âHa⌠whatever.â
He instinctively knew that overthinking wouldnât yield any solid solutions, so he stood up.
âSince when did I overthink stuff like this?â
Just dive in.
In the end, Joon decided to tackle the problem in the way he knew best and called out to her as she was about to leave.
âPark Chaerin.â
As he approached and called her name, everyone in the class turned their attention to them.
Maybe because Joon never initiated conversations with girls.
Or maybe because the other party was Park Chaerin, rumored to be the prettiest girl in school.
Everyone stopped what they were doing and watched with eager eyes, as if anticipating a fight.
âChaerin, Chaerin.â
âWhat.â
âThat guy keeps staring at you.â
ââŚHa.â
Sheâd vaguely noticed it too.
His gaze was so blatant, but it wasnât just that.
Maybe because of the striking looks she inherited from her actress mother.
She drew attention from both guys and girls, making her hypersensitive to such stares.
âAnnoying.â
She didnât want to care, but he was staring so obviously that even her friends noticed.
From her experience, sheâd likely get a confession within a week, or a month at the latest.
Some might call it vanity to assume this just because someone stared at her face for a while.
âAnother oneâs fallen for me.â
Her friends all thought the same, as her beauty was beyond ordinary.
âItâs barely been a week since school started, and heâs already trying to hit on you~â
âBut that guy never seemed interested in girls⌠guess your face did the trick.â
ââŚStop talking nonsense.â
She recognized his face but could barely recall his name and had never spoken to him.
âThat guy whoâs always goofing aroundâŚâ
Since starting high school, sheâd seen his personality in classâcompletely frivolous.
Always wearing a grin, spouting silly nonsense with his friends.
âJust an immature, ignorant boy.â
The type Chaerin despised most.
People who lived like carefree cartoon characters from her childhood, without a worry in the world.
In truth, Joon always smiled to avoid worrying his only remaining family, his mother, but.
âI f*cking hate him.â
âPfft⌠youâre gonna hurt his feelings.â
There was no way Chaerin could know that.
Her genuine disgust made her friends burst into laughter, unable to hold it in.
âGod, youâre hilarious.â
âCome on, he likes you, donât be like that~â
âWho asked him to like me?â
Nothing was more repulsive than unwanted affection.
Especially from someone she despised.
âIf he talks to me, Iâll tell him to get lost.â
Recalling past confessions, she planned how to shut him down as the bell rang.
After enduring another boring school day, it was finally after-school hours.
âLetâs go, Chaerin-jjang~â
âCan you stop adding âjjangâ to my name?â
As she got up to head to cram school with her friend, who was using that annoying tone as usual.
âPark Chaerin.â
ââŚâ
The voice she least wanted to hear called her name, and she instinctively grimaced.
She stopped in her tracks, turned around, and there was Joon, the guy whoâd been staring at her during the break.
âUgh, f*ck.â
An uneasy feeling crept up her spine, wondering what he was about to say.
She frowned at the unwanted attention and sighed inwardly.
âIf youâre gonna call me, do it quietly somewhere else.â
His attention-grabbing move silenced the classroom.
The pressure amplified the irritation already filling her chest.
âWhat.â
Though winter had passed and spring was approaching, Park Chaerinâs tone was as cold as ice.
Everyone in the class, even those not involved, felt a chill from her frosty aura.
It was an unmistakable signal to shut up and leave.
A softer-hearted kid mightâve shed a tear.
But.
âHeâs smiling?â
No matter how angry a high schoolerâs expression was, it was still just a high schooler.
The age gap wasnât huge, but to Joon, whoâd been in his mid-20s, her threat didnât faze him.
With the same goofy smile he always wore at school, he said.
âLetâs talk for a sec.â